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How To Heal Your Relationship with Money

I am so thankful for all of the mentors, teachers, and guides that I’ve had along my spiritual and business journey. But one of the most influential teachers I’ve had in my journey has been Denise Duffield-Thomas.

Denise teaches about Money Mindset and I took her course Money Bootcamp, which got me through my toughest financial time last year when I stepped from a full time to a part time job, and it has completely set me up for success. You can read about that time in my life here, and you can learn more about my money and spirituality story here.

The things I have learned through her course are simply priceless to me. It has helped me decipher my beliefs, shed those beliefs, forgive those who have given me those beliefs, and retrained my mind for abundance. Last month I almost hit my goal of 5 figures! You can read about this here.

I will forever sing Denise’s praises!!

She also provides tons of free content that is super interesting and eye opening.

In case you want to check out her Facebook page, click here.

If you want to follow her YouTube Channel, click here.

Here is a post that is about setting boundaries in your business, but I honestly think it could apply to all areas of life!

How To Set Better Business Boundaries

Seriously, if you are interested in healing your money mindset, listening to Denise is the way to go.

Let me know what you think!


La Rae

I Didn’t Order the Food that I Wanted..

This year, as you may recall, is dubbed The Year of Nourish since I have been practicing and learning how to nourish my body, soul, and spirit. And if you’ve been following me on social media, you might know that I recently read a book called Bright Line Eating by Susan Peirce Thompson, Ph.D. Since I read the book, I have been following the Bright Line Eating plan and it really has made a huge impact on my life.

Now, I’m not going to go into detail about what that plan entails, because honestly, if I were to just TELL YOU what it is, you would never do it. Sorry, but it’s true. I didn’t even know if I could do it, but the SCIENCE behind the plan is the WHY I’ve been able to keep following it.

If you are interested in learning about the plan, here is a link to purchase.

**Please note this is an affiliate link, but all opinions on this are my own and I would never recommend something that I don’t believe in or that doesn’t work.**

But this weekend, I went on a day-date with myself to my favorite place in Iowa, Clear Lake, and had a big personal win in terms of nourishing myself.

There are two restaurants in Clear Lake that I went to the last time I was there and I wanted to eat there again. Before I headed to the first restaurant, I was looking at the menu, deciding what I wanted. I decided to go with something simple: cheese balls for an appetizer, fish and chips with ranch for my meal, and I would let myself have a fruity, beachy drink! Man was I excited for a cheat day!

But as I was sitting at my table, waiting to order, I started to think. What was the main objective of the trip? To sit at the beach, read a book, get a tan. Eating was NOT the main objective. How would I feel if I eat all this crap? I would feel full and bloated, which would make laying out in the hot sun absolutely miserable (and boy was it HOT HOT HOT out!).

So, I ordered a water with a lemon, bruschetta, grilled shrimp and veggie kabobs, and a salad instead of fries. The bruschetta came with grilled buns cut up into triangles, and I barely ate any bread. The salad came loaded with croutons, and I didn’t even eat those.

Because since starting Bright Line Eating, I have felt so much better. My food has tasted so much better. And best of all, I am actually losing weight, without exercising.

That day, I decided how I wanted to feel and ate according to that instead of ordering what I thought I wanted to eat. 

This is a concept, and a few other concepts taught in Bright Line Eating, was first introduced to me when I was a part of Live More, Weigh Less, a program by Sarah Jenks. Unfortunately they didn’t really resonate with me 2 years ago when I did the program. Sometimes we have to learn things in different ways before they actually click in a profound, meaningful way, and that’s ok!

I am so thankful that this happened. It has never been so easy for me to choose what to eat before, and it’s never been more easy for me to give myself what I NEED.

When was the last time you gave yourself what you NEEDED and not what you wanted? Let me know in the comments below!


La Rae



So as you can tell, I’m pretty fricken excited.

At the beginning of the year, I made a goal of hitting $10,000 in gross income each month. This month, I almost hit that goal!

Before I show you the final number for June 2017, I want to make it abundantly clear about how I got here:

  1. I started a business 4 years ago.
  2. I had people around me who believed in me enough to keep me going when I wanted to quit.
  3. I continued learning, growing, and getting better at my craft.
  4. I expanded my offerings to fit client need.
  5. I started adding in multiple streams of income (The average millionaire has 7 streams of income…I work 2+ businesses simultaneously! Working on developing more!)
  6. I worked through my money mindset to change the negative thoughts/habits I had around money.  I cannot emphasize enough how important this is! If you are not in a place to RECEIVE ABUNDANCE, you won’t.
  7. I have emotionally worked through a LOT OF SHIT in the past 5-6 years. I cannot emphasize enough how important this is. If you do not sort through negative emotions, bad memories, and the like, you won’t be able to even do business. Business is said to be one of the most spiritual practices, and that is 100% correct.

I also want to make it abundantly clear that this number is GROSS INCOME, not NET INCOME. I pay my associates and my husband, which is a large chunk, and with this money, I made some larger equipment purchases in order to up the ante in my business again.

So without further ado, here is my final number for June:

$9,493!!!!! BAZINGA BITCHES. 

In June, my income MOSTLY came from my wedding photography/videography company, but also received income from my part time job (which I also quit in June), and from sales and commission from my direct sales company, Girl Boss Lips, which is part of SeneGence, International.

As you may remember, my words for 2017 are NOURISH and RECEIVE. These two words and how I’ve been living them are also very much a part of this awesome month I had.

You see, I finally nourished myself by leaving my job and working for myself. I continue to nourish myself by creating boundaries in order to protect my own energy. I nourish myself physically and mentally. I also have been practicing receiving in that I accept compliments, I accept tips, I accept adoration, I allow myself to receive JOY.

So much of our daily habits form our reality, often times, without our knowledge.

Don’t get me wrong, earning this much money isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. When I saw this number, there was some fear and doubt. Fear that so much money arrived in June, and I don’t have that same expected income for July. Fear that I don’t know if I will EVER duplicate this. There was doubt that I deserved it. There was doubt whether or not this is even real.

But, I know from my deep depression last year and making the jump from full-time to part-time that when I feel the constriction of fear in my belly and my chest, closing my eyes and B R E A T H I N G deep, in and out, and imagining that I am a blob melting into the Universe, helps to ease the fear and uncertainty.

In a blog post earlier this year, I outlined many resources that helped me last year. You can find that blog post by clicking here. Honestly, though, being open to learning and dealing with my mental and emotional issues has led me to the perfect therapists/coaches/resources/experiences I needed in order to walk this path. There is no right or wrong! I assure you. Just be open and the resources will appear.

Real resources to help YOU achieve your dreams:

  1. Denise Duffield-Thomas-she has TONS of free content on her website, here, but doing her Lucky Bitch Money Bootcamp has changed my life. Literally. Changed it. I kid you not. There is another LIVE ROUND of Lucky Bitch Money Bootcamp happening in August, and I HIGHLY suggest you join along! In the meantime, you can take the Lucky Bitch Manigesting Course by clicking here,  or trying the Money in 24 Hours here. I am an affiliate for Denise, but this opinion IS completely my own, and I would never recommend something that doesn’t work or didn’t profoundly influence my life!

2. Maru Iabichela-Maru also has tons of free content to help you learn how to RECEIVE. Maru’s teachings were what really showed me how little teeny tiny things that I was saying or doing (or NOT saying or doing) were affecting my capacity to receive! She is incredible.

3. Playing Big by Tara Mohr-in this book Tara talks about how women tend to play small and how to change that. What I love most about this book is that she talks both philosophy AND gives plenty of practical action steps in order to help you play big.

4. Get a coach! I have had a couple of coaches in the past year that have REALLY helped me. One focused on Spirituality, and one is a business coach. These two ladies work SO WELL for me, but I encourage you to find a coach that suits YOU. (My coaches, Lauren Wardell + Liz Nead, pictured below!)

So, July is another month. So far this month (it’s July 5th right now), I’ve made $875. Will I hit $9000 again this month? I don’t know! So many possibilities are opening up for me. But I know that I CAN. Maybe not this month, but I know that financial abundance is not only a possibility, but a definite.


La Rae

Yep, I’m Still Fat.

Getting photos taken is a scary time for fat girls like me. On one hand, we are soooo excited to buy new clothes and dream of locations. On the other hand, we know we are fat, and so we’re scared of putting ourselves out there for the world to see.

That’s kind of how I felt getting ready for new website photos, which I had taken last night.

There is so much excitement knowing that the environment and lighting is perfect…then, there’s me, a big fat blob, smack dab in the middle of it. I get so scared sometimes about what people think when they see me…”Oh wow, she really gained a lot of weight,”….”Oh wow I feel so sorry for her husband! She has really gotten fat,”…..”She is so fat.”

Really, it’s very scary to me to think.

BUT I don’t let that stop me anymore.

Being fat doesn’t mean that I’m less worthy.

Being fat doesn’t mean I should hide.

Being fat doesn’t mean I should give up on my dreams.

See, I know that this is a temporary stop in my life. I won’t always have this much fat on me, and I am a work in progress. Now that I am investing 100% of my energy in ME, I KNOW that I will lose the weight.

I also don’t want you to think that I am glorifying being a big girl. I’m not. I know that added fat on my body is TERRIBLE for my health. But that doesn’t mean that at times in our lives, we won’t have more weight/fat than other times. There is an ebb and a flow to everything, including the size of our bodies.

I wanted to talk about this issue because I was triggered by how I look and knowing that it’s scary to be seen, especially when you aren’t happy with yourself. But that is no reason to remain hidden.

Rise. Be seen. Your voice, story, and experience makes a difference in the world.

Photo by Jenni Chung Photography 2016

The Great Uterus Attack of 2017

This is going to be a weird post, and it involves a small amount of back story, but please, stick with me.

For the past few days, my uterus has been attacking my body more than it EVER has in my 16 years of having my Moon Time Cycle. (What’s a Moon Time? Click here to find out.)

But, the story here begins on Monday night (2 days ago) when I had a family photo session in a spot that I’ve always wanted to shoot at, but never have. This spot is a bit off the beaten path, and the grass was very tall. My clients were a little apprehensive, but we did it anyways. I made a joke about how I should’ve brought a lawn mower to mow a path down to the creek.

The next night, the night that my uterus began attacking me, aka, giving me terrible, debilitating cramps, the worst I have ever experienced, I had a dream that I drove by the creek and saw that someone had in fact mowed a path down to the creek.

This will come into play soon.

I started getting these excruciating cramps around 3pm yesterday (Tuesday) after having a HUGE AHA about my life and my next steps on following my dreams. Upper limiting myself already? I thought. I knew this was a good thing, even though it was painful. It means I am onto something. I also knew I should take a bath, but I didn’t (because my husband has to take a bath every night, and I didn’t want to interfere with his hot water…country life!). So I went to bed and hoped I would be better in the morning.

Well, I wasn’t. I woke up at 6am with these pains, and decided to finally take a bath, which worked almost instantly, as I knew it would!

I figured I would take a bath, then get up when my alarm went off and go to work.

An hour of sleep passed, my alarm went off, and I had a decision to make: listen to my body, which said, stay home and take care of yourself, or, ignore the pain and go to work. After another attack hit me right as I was making that choice, I realized I needed to stay home. I got back into the bath for another hour long soak, and went back to bed.

I woke up around noon feeling better, for a while. I didn’t have another attack until about 3pm. Bless my husband, he went to get me Midol from the store and googled ways to make me feel better. He got me some zinc, fish oil pills, and ibuprofen. But, the cramps persisted.

So back into the bath I went.

I decided to take a book with me, a book that I’m reading called You Are a Badass.

While reading, I was thinking about all the things my business coach and I had discussed the day before, and I started thinking about the idea I had received. Which then led to another idea. Which led to me understanding why my body was attacking me. My body was attacking me to create the situation where I would slow down enough to divinely receive my next big project.

And I realized that my dream about a path being made to the water was a metaphor for me being led to my new project. It also made sense why I had to get into the bath in order to realize this: water is a conduit for creativity and spirituality.


I also realized that these cramps I am feeling are me literally attempting to birth this new project and new phase into my life, and that yet again, a woman’s connection to her cycle, her womb, and her blood is the most powerful thing in the world.

Sorry, I’m not telling you what that is right now! But I am so thankful for everything that has transpired over the past 72 hours to bring me to this point.

Thank you, Universe. Thank you, I love you, Thank you, more please.


La Rae

The Things You Need to KNOW in Order to Succeed in Life

Everyone has a different definition of “success.” To some, it’s having a family. To others, it’s starting a business, or following a dream, or traveling the world, etc. You get it.

To me, success is having time and money freedom. That’s what I’m working towards in everything I do, and it’s what I mean when I say success. I hear a lot of people complain about going to work or not being “rich,” when in this day in age, it’s actually pretty easy to make good money. Easy, as in the opportunities are there. But of course, hard, as in, you have to put in the time and effort. That’s, of course, why not everyone is financially wealthy (Not even me! I’m not quite there yet.)

But besides putting in the long hours and elbow grease to become financially wealthy, there are other things that a person needs in order to “succeed.” These are often things that you won’t find on a list on Forbes or Entrepreneur. No, these are kind of fluffy, emotional, psychological things that people DO NOT like to talk about, but are really, really, really important.

This list I am about to share with you is actually a good starting point in your mental game for ANYTHING you want to accomplish in life, whether it be becoming a millionaire, writing a book, getting a new job, losing weight. I truly believe that the psychology of accomplishing anything comes down to these simple truths.

I could’ve called this list The Thing You Need to BELIEVE in Order to Succeed, but I didn’t. I called this list The Things You Need to KNOW in Order to Succeed because believing isn’t enough. You have to KNOW DEEP DOWN IN YOUR BONES that these things are true.

So, what the hell are they?

  1. You need to KNOW it is possible: Some people already ruin their chances at success by thinking that it’s not possible to achieve whatever goal is in their heart. Perhaps no one else around them has achieved this goal, perhaps you think you’re not smart enough, clever enough, pretty enough. These things do not matter. You can do anything.
  2. You need to KNOW when fear is making your decisions for you: In my line of work at my part time job, I am constantly exposed to entrepreneurs. I’m basically a business coach. And a lot of times, I see business owners making excuses for not doing things. This makes me extremely sad because most of the time, fear is their guiding emotion. Fear will always be there. It will. However, it doesn’t always have to make the decisions for you. All you have to do is have one big moment of courage, and if you will let go of fear’s hold forever.
  3. You need to KNOW that you can handle whatever accompanies your success: Another big hang up that I have a lot is another part of fear, but worth mentioning on its own: the responsibility of success, which often includes maintenance. There are so many positives of achieving your goals and dreams, but there are dark sides to the positives. What if people don’t like me anymore? What if people only like me because I have achieved my goal? What if I can’t maintain this level of success? What if I don’t have time to do things I love anymore? Whatever fears you hold here, just know that you can handle anything.
  4. You need to KNOW that you may need help along the way: This was a really tough one for me to learn, but you cannot do everything all the time. You will need help. You will need a shoulder to cry on. Hell, you may need a therapist. But it’s best to give up the notion that you can do everything on your own now, maybe spare yourself a headache.
  5. And most of all, the thing that is MOST IMPORTANT TO KNOW is that YOU ARE WORTHY AND DESERVING of whatever it is that you’re going after. This is the big one. This is the whopper of the list because it’s often the HARDEST to BELIEVE, let alone KNOW DEEP IN YOUR BONES. But regardless of the mistakes you’ve made up until this point, regardless of your skin color, religion, sexual identity or orientation, all those things, YOU DESERVE TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS, DREAMS, AND LIVE THE LIFE YOU’VE ALWAYS IMAGINED.

I am sure that more could be added to this list, but I believe that these are the 5 basic concepts that anyone attempting to achieve a goal needs to know.

Which one gives you the most trouble?

Let me know!


La Rae

Photo credit, EllaEve Photography

When You Have to Let Go of a Dream

I talk a lot about following your dreams and how important it is to do so. I have followed plenty of dreams recently, but let me tell you, not all of them pan out.

Yes, even I have to deal with failure, sometimes. This happened to me recently, and it was heartbreaking.

Let me tell you about it….

If you didn’t know, I am a full time wedding photographer. I love weddings because I love LOVE. Love makes me giddy.

Another thing that makes me giddy is Victorian houses, and one in particular: the one I grew up in.

Long story short, after 25ish years of living in a gorgeous, yet run-down, Queen Anne Victorian house, my parents moved out. The house was in such disrepair that there was talks of a nearby non-profit purchasing the home and land, and tearing it down. By a stroke of luck, the city put a year-long ban on demolishing historic homes, which gave me time to think about how I could save the house that I loved so dearly.

My husband would NEVER let us move back to my hometown and live there, so I attempted to convince my dad to open up an antique shop there and I could also house my studio there.

He quickly vetoed that idea. Back to the drawing board.

One day I was driving down the road, and it hit me: I could buy the house, renovate it, and turn it into a boutique wedding venue. I divinely downloaded so much information about this venture: what it would look like, what I would call it, I even created a services package and marketing materials. I was in LOVE with this idea, and since I received the idea from a divine source, I thought for sure it would pan out.

But, the problem was, I couldn’t afford a second mortgage, so I came up with a very shaky business plan to take to my aunt, who actually has rights to the house, in order to become business partners.

I couldn’t offer much, but I was SURE it would all work out. After all, the Universe gave me the idea. That must mean something, right?

So, I went to my aunt to pitch the idea. I asked her to just think about it. Well, a few weeks later, she said that she would have to decline.

I was HEARTBROKEN, but yet, I still had hope. I could still figure out how to purchase the house outright.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to come up with a plan in time. As I was driving to my parents’ house to pick up the key for the house in order to use it for a photoshoot, my mom told me that it had been sold.

I was devasted. I walked around my home bawling for over and hour. That week, I cried myself to sleep a couple of nights because that was the last time I would be in MY HOUSE.

So, what do you do when you have to let go of a dream? What if a dream slips through your hands without ever coming into fruition, as it did to me?

I guess this is another instance where I am able to use lessons that I’ve been learning for the past few years: courage, trust, and receiving.

For the hour that I was bawling in my house, I was angry at the Universe. WHY did I ever have this dream put into my heart? WHY give me all that inspiration when it wasn’t meant to be? WHY did it have to turn out this way?

I cried and cried. I relived so many childhood memories and felt so much sadness for what I wanted to do but couldn’t. But then, of course, I knew that this was another lesson and that I was meant to use this lesson to help others.

And whatever is meant for you will not pass you. So, then, I knew that this dream simply wasn’t meant to come true. The Universe has other plans for me.

So, I employed tools that have helped me the past 2 years: letting myself feel my emotions, breathing into the uncertainty, and trusting that everything is happening as it should.

Were you expecting some revolutionary list? I’m sorry to disappoint you there. But really, trust is the biggest tool I have ever learned, and I am sure it will continue to guide me throughout my life. I am currently trusting that this dream that I had to let go of is pointing me in the direction that I actually need to go. I will share more of that dream when the time comes.


La Rae

What I have Learned about PURPOSE.


Anyone on a journey of self-development has explored the idea of PURPOSE.

What is it? Is it innate? How do I find it? What do I need to do with it? What if things just aren’t working out for me? What if other people don’t care about my purpose?

These questions alone are exhausting. Luckily, we often times make it harder than it really is (way to go, brain!).

But I have learned a few profound lessons about purpose that I wanted to share with you.

  1. Purpose usually lives in your bliss: When we start out on our journey, we often believe that purpose is some elusive idea that we must go out and FIND. Usually, though, we just have to look at where we are the most HAPPY + BLISSFUL. Purpose also typically is found in recurring themes, which goes hand in hand with your bliss. What is something that makes you blissful every time you do it?
  2. Purpose does not have to directly serve anyone but yourself: I used to believe that my purpose had to be selfless; it had to be in service of someone else in order to truly be purpose. But this is bullshit. Your purpose does not have to DIRECTLY serve anyone but yourself. Why? Because the world needs happy people full of love. When you are living in your purpose, you will be (mostly) happy and full of love. You will be joyful. You will be glowing. And THIS is how you will serve others. Your joy, happiness, excitement, etc, will vibrate into the collective consciousness and result in a higher vibration and good for all.  Your bravery and courage will INSPIRE others to be brave and follow THEIR bliss. So stop with the martyrdom. It’s not doing anyone any good.
  3. Purpose is not always easy: Some people think that once they FIND their purpose (even though now we have established that you usually don’t need to FIND it), they will always be jazzed and energized by it. Well, I am sorry to say that this isn’t always the case. Just because something is your purpose doesn’t meant that it will always be a walk in the park. Your purpose will help you become the BEST YOU that you can be, which means that you do have to work through your shit. You will have to walk into your darkness, face your demons, undo negative conditioning, let go of anger, believe in yourself. These things are HARD. I am not going to sugar coat that. But they are WORTH IT.
  4. BUT happiness can be found in surrendering to your purpose: Although you won’t ALWAYS be energized by your purpose, I can assure you, you will always be HAPPY. I’ve never heard of anyone REGRETTING following their heart, their bliss, or their purpose. When you surrender to your purpose, you can rest assured that you are making the best of your life. You are living. You are NOT just going through the motions.

This is the list for now. I am sure I will learn more as I continue to figure out what it means to live MY purpose, MY bliss, follow MY heart, live in MY authentic truth.

Which truth surprised you the most?

I would love to know!

Until next time….


La Rae

Dreaming of Adventure

Wow, I have really been sucking at NOURISH + RECEIVE.

I guess it’s the positive and happy lessons that are the hardest to learn.

After months of ever-increasing gross income, I have totally psyched myself out. My gross income is not doing so hot.

And self-care, pff, I have been doing so poorly.

But yesterday, Sunday, March 12, I had an idea that hit me hard, but I knew it was the right thing.

I have to decrease my social media usage.

This is hard for me, basically because there is so much that my hubs and I cannot do. Often times, we just veg in front of our laptops all day. Super not good and so not nourishing.

So I decided to do a Sunday Social Media Fast. I did have to go on Facebook for a little bit, but I really made a conscious effort to stay off.

And it was incredible.

I didn’t stay off of my computer, because let’s be real, BABY STEPS.

But at least I didn’t binge on Facebook or Instagram all day.

What I did do was EXPLORE.

When I look back at all of my happiest moments in life, it was when I was travelling. Going on an airplane for the first time at 14. Seeing Times Square all lit up. Seeing the ocean for the first time at the age 19. Going to England. Eating at a mountain top restaurant in Athens, Greece, watching the lights sparkling in the night as my fellow pilgrims drank champagne and laughed as the night breeze flowed around us. Road-tripping with my husband.

Travel is my bliss.

Glastonbury Tor in Glastonbury, England, first trip outside of the US.

Seeing the ocean for the first time in Panama City Beach, FL.

Toes in the water

Athens all lit up.

Monemvasia, Greece

Oia, Santorini, Greece

Oia, Santorini, Greece Sunset

First time in Mexico, somewhere around Cabo.


Coconut drinks 🙂

Mardi Gras, New Orleans, Louisiana-our first roadtrip

Chichen Itza, Mexico

Holland, Michigan

Clear Lake, Iowa

My happiest times have been when I’m traveling, exploring, expanding my mind and experiences.

So yesterday, when I stayed off of social media for most of the day, we dreamed about where our next adventure would take us.

Some of Randall’s injuries are slowly getting better, but still, we have no ETA of when he will be better. BUT the hope that the world is big and wide and full of things to explore fills our hearts with so much joy.

So I guess the point of this post is just to say, never stop dreaming, never stop exploring, never lose your sense of wonder, follow your bliss.

And sometimes, you just need to stay the F off of Facebook.


La Rae

Changing Identity.

This week, my amazing energy healer and spirituality coach Lauren Wardell gave me some insights into why running is so effective for me in terms of weight loss, but also in processing energy as an empath.

So, I went running.

8-9 years ago, running was new to me. Prior to the age of 20, I had always been self-conscious about my weight, and frequently did Tae-Bo in my living room at night in order to lose my weight. It was also a new time in my life where I was single and not looking to mingle, and spent a significant amount of time taking care of myself. I would often run for hours at a time. In my prime, I would run 6 miles at a time a couple times of week. I would run in the forest, feel wild and free, and my body responded. I lost weight pretty quickly, to say the least.

So clearly, I’ve known for a very long time that running is MY method of losing weight, which in more broken down terms, is the way my body likes to burn energy. My healer (Lauren Wardell, Vitality Coaching) reminded me of this, and also further explained why this is so.

Today, Sunday, a beautiful, mildly cold day, I decided to go for a run.

I like to listen to Elizabeth DiAlto podcasts when I’m walking or running on the trail.

I just love how synchronicity has created an awakening for me today through these experiences.

While listening to Elizabeth’s podcast with Rebecca Campbell, Rebecca talked about how sometimes as a warrior, we feel the need to be martyrs. Being a warrior is something I’ve associated with for basically my whole life. I have always identified with the goddess Diana/Artemis, a hunter warrior goddess. And this year, throughout the struggles my husband has had with injuries and his health, I have truly felt the need to harness the warrior in order to survive.

I received an intuitive hit that I need to let go of the warrior portion of my identity….and here’s the kicker….I need to do so because right now, I can’t nourish myself while being a warrior.


One of my words for 2017 is NOURISH, and let me tell you, I’ve not been doing a fantastic job with this. I do well for a few days, then completely forget to take care of myself. I feel like this is honestly going to be the hardest lesson I’ll ever learn.

So, let’s look into what I know about the warrior archetype.

Traditionally, the warrior is a masculine archetype, which makes a lot of sense, because I’ve always been stuck in my masculine. I’m always hustling something, always doing something, and I rarely sit down or relax. In the words of my coach, instead of being a human BEING, I’ve always been a human DOING.

So the information that I divinely received today is particularly powerful because I am being called to access, explore, and master my own mothering, nurturing feminine essence.

So, it seems, I have been called to change my identity. It’s going to be incredibly hard to let go of habits and behaviors that I have honed for 28 years. But I know that the joy and essence of my life depends on it.

With this change, I believe it’s time to begin honoring a new goddess.

After some research, I feel like the goddess Brigid is calling to me.

Brigid is a Celtic Goddess of Imbolc, the coming of spring, motherhood, poetry, fire, creativity, and inspiration.

I am excited to learn more about Brigid and myself in this new stage of my life, and I’m so thankful that I’ve been given this information on how to truly nourishing myself.

Blessed be.