Changing Identity.

This week, my amazing energy healer and spirituality coach Lauren Wardell gave me some insights into why running is so effective for me in terms of weight loss, but also in processing energy as an empath.

So, I went running.

8-9 years ago, running was new to me. Prior to the age of 20, I had always been self-conscious about my weight, and frequently did Tae-Bo in my living room at night in order to lose my weight. It was also a new time in my life where I was single and not looking to mingle, and spent a significant amount of time taking care of myself. I would often run for hours at a time. In my prime, I would run 6 miles at a time a couple times of week. I would run in the forest, feel wild and free, and my body responded. I lost weight pretty quickly, to say the least.

So clearly, I’ve known for a very long time that running is MY method of losing weight, which in more broken down terms, is the way my body likes to burn energy. My healer (Lauren Wardell, Vitality Coaching) reminded me of this, and also further explained why this is so.

Today, Sunday, a beautiful, mildly cold day, I decided to go for a run.

I like to listen to Elizabeth DiAlto podcasts when I’m walking or running on the trail.

I just love how synchronicity has created an awakening for me today through these experiences.

While listening to Elizabeth’s podcast with Rebecca Campbell, Rebecca talked about how sometimes as a warrior, we feel the need to be martyrs. Being a warrior is something I’ve associated with for basically my whole life. I have always identified with the goddess Diana/Artemis, a hunter warrior goddess. And this year, throughout the struggles my husband has had with injuries and his health, I have truly felt the need to harness the warrior in order to survive.

I received an intuitive hit that I need to let go of the warrior portion of my identity….and here’s the kicker….I need to do so because right now, I can’t nourish myself while being a warrior.

MIND BLOWN.

One of my words for 2017 is NOURISH, and let me tell you, I’ve not been doing a fantastic job with this. I do well for a few days, then completely forget to take care of myself. I feel like this is honestly going to be the hardest lesson I’ll ever learn.

So, let’s look into what I know about the warrior archetype.

Traditionally, the warrior is a masculine archetype, which makes a lot of sense, because I’ve always been stuck in my masculine. I’m always hustling something, always doing something, and I rarely sit down or relax. In the words of my coach, instead of being a human BEING, I’ve always been a human DOING.

So the information that I divinely received today is particularly powerful because I am being called to access, explore, and master my own mothering, nurturing feminine essence.

So, it seems, I have been called to change my identity. It’s going to be incredibly hard to let go of habits and behaviors that I have honed for 28 years. But I know that the joy and essence of my life depends on it.

With this change, I believe it’s time to begin honoring a new goddess.

After some research, I feel like the goddess Brigid is calling to me.

Brigid is a Celtic Goddess of Imbolc, the coming of spring, motherhood, poetry, fire, creativity, and inspiration.

I am excited to learn more about Brigid and myself in this new stage of my life, and I’m so thankful that I’ve been given this information on how to truly nourishing myself.

Blessed be.

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