Full Circle.

Today I would like to tell you a story about myself + some interested current events that have unfolded in my world. Bear with me though, because there are so many beginnings to this story that I’m not really sure where the best place to start is.

I guess the beginning was this. This was me.

Bright-eyed. Full of dreams. Ready to bloom. Most importantly, full of love, but more so, full of a void in my heart that I wanted to fill with love.

me-4me-2 me-3

My biggest problem was that I didn’t know how to love myself. I mean, this is unfortunately a pretty common thing for many people.

At 18 or 19, I got a tattoo of a lotus that said “Love is everything.”

Back then, I got the tattoo for new beginnings. I also got the tattoo to somehow show my high school boyfriend that I was serious about wanting to get back together with him. Well that never happened, and soon, the new tattoo’s meaning faded away.

Fast forward to about September 2016. This month was pivotal for me in terms of courage, trust, and self-love, as I am finding out now, but of course didn’t know it was happening then.

As many of you know, I have really been working on trusting my intuition. For me, this has meant believing my intuition, and go for whatever it tells me without really questioning it.

So, I received the intuition that I was supposed to get a tattoo, and that I was supposed to work on my lotus tattoo.

Not questioning it, I decided to look for designs to incorporate. I was so excited because I knew exactly where I was going to get the money, and everything would work out.

Of course, then, in October, numerous expenses came up and I realized I wouldn’t have the money to do this. I wasn’t worried, though, because I knew my intuition was correct, and I knew that something would happen that would allow me to get this tattoo.

A client had contacted me about photographing her wedding, and then I hadn’t heard back from her, so I checked in to see if she was still interested. I got a really strong feeling about this client, so I didn’t want to just let her go. She told me she loved my work, but was having trouble coming up for the money for the deposit. I told her I would work with her on the payment, and then she mentioned that her fiance is a tattoo artist and he would be happy to trade services for part of their payment.


So this guy is actually incredibly talented, so of course I said yes.

After my consultation with this artist and now client, we set up a date, and I was sooooo stoked.

2 days later at yoga, my instructor decided to show us the lotus mudra.


She told us that this mudra is about learning unconditional love.


While this post isn’t going to go in-depth on my processes of how I’ve been learning unconditional love just yet, I just felt that this is such a powerful message from the Universe for me. When I got the lotus tattoo 9 years ago, I didn’t exactly know what it meant. I thought it was meant to be for someone else. But it was supposed to be for me. It has been an amulet, a talisman, without me even knowing it.

And I am now not the same. I am different. I am new. I am free. I am on my way. I have come full circle.

Watch me shine.


La Rae

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *