What ifs sometimes bring us from bad times to good times. What if I hadn’t have made that bad decision? What if I had chosen differently? Those are often the what ifs we think about.
Today, I have been filled with positive what ifs.
What if I hadn’t made the decision to pursue photography? How did I ever believe that I could do something I barely had any knowledge of.
What if I had never taken that first wedding client?
What if I actually gave up when I thought about giving up?
I am so happy that I took the leap. That I tried something I never even imagined trying. I am so happy that I believed in myself.
Following my dreams has been sooooo hard lately.
We’ve gone to the grocery store, filled up our cart, then asked which one of us was paying for it, resulting in having to put some items back on the shelves, and praying our payment gets accepted at the checkout.
I have feared losing my house because we didn’t know where money to pay our mortgage would come from.
The electric company literally came and posted a sign on my door to tell me they were close to turning our electricity off.
I probably have $100-$200 in overdraft fees each month.
I have sobbed. I have mourned my old life where although my situation sucked, I had enough money and didn’t have to do without.
I have questioned why I quit my full time, good paying job, to get a part time job I adore and love with all my heart and to pursue entrepreneurship, but where money is never guaranteed and the hustle game is strong.
But this is why. This feeling of joy. This feeling of coming out of the fog. I know it will still be a struggle. I know that we’re not out of the park yet. But there is light at the end of the tunnel and I’m running towards it.
Take the leap, friends. It’s scary. It’s hard. It’s exhausting. But do it anyway.